Sunday, September 29, 2013

My Weakness Is...


“I can’t help you fix yourself”

Early autumn tennis is always my most preferred type of activity. Even in Texas, you cannot beat the atmosphere, comfort and steady Fall season. Yesterday morning I played singles against an opponent with one glaring weakness. Even he would admit his service game was nothing to write home about. My opponent’s serve is one that barely clears the net. His slow lob serve style is consistent (he rarely double faults) and nonthreatening. I’ve played tennis for 24 years and have always adjusted to my opponent’s unique style. The lob serve is the one serve I just do not have the patience to handle in my return game. My opponent’s groundstrokes were quick, low to the ground and solid. It was his serve that continually threw me off and frustrated me. I would be so close to the service line after each return that it was a severe disadvantage for me to retreat to the baseline.

As it turns out, I won the match. But I wonder if my opponent considered his one weakness as an actual strength by the end of our time together. Sometimes in life, we can use our weaknesses as strengths. It helps to know your weaknesses first. I interviewed a few potential candidates for open positions this week. A question I often ask in interviews is the standard, “What is your greatest strength and weakness?” In business school, they teach you to answer interview questions in a certain way. Professors train you to identify your strengths and weaknesses and claim something as a weakness that can be spun into strength.  I’m a perfectionist. I’m stubborn. I’m an overachiever or a workaholic. I always have to finish assignments early and prepare weeks in advance for presentations. These are the type of “weaknesses” that work FOR you on job interviews (providing they are true).

I know my weaknesses, on and off the court. Outside of tennis, I identify my greatest weaknesses as not asking for help. I had an ex-boyfriend tell me that it was an insult to him when I did not ask or want his help. I always wondered if that was his insecurity talking or if there really was some truth to his opinion. I think it was a little of both. I like to be in charge of my own destiny. I like to call my own shots and do things myself. This self-sufficient and independent attitude has worked FOR me and against me. It has made me a great singles player (I am good at doubles, but there is too much reliability on the other person). This attitude is the reason I am a reliable, accountable and dependable employee. Bosses know they can count on me and usually do not have to show me the way. When I falter, fumble and fail, it’s much easier for me to beat myself up than blame another. I’ve been in situations where I asked for assistance and the outcome was not desirable. Quickly, I learned to rely solely on myself. Every leap of faith has betrayed me.

This is clearly a weakness. If I stretch it ever further, it is a weakness because it has caused me to be less assertive and hard to read. I don’t always express myself correctly because I do not ask for help or take time to explain how things need to be done. Just ask my mother. Most people outside family members tell me I am hard to read. In fact, every person I have ever dated has sounded like a broken record with this same song and dance playing back to me: “I just don’t know what you’re thinking half the time, you’re so hard to read”. On the flip side, with two outs and the bases loaded in a softball game, that same poker face made me a very effective pitcher. Opponents did not see me rattled, and it intimidated them. You most often win the mental game when you play it cool in sports. Co-workers admire how I do not allow my emotions to dictate my job. This quality in a manager has its advantages, but can be problematic if assertiveness is lacking. I know my weaknesses. I am aware of the areas in which improvement is necessary. But I now also realize you can play your weaknesses to your advantage, as my opponent did in yesterday’s match. Everyone brings something to the table, strengths or weaknesses. All can be beneficial under certain circumstances. It helps to identify them, break them down and use them when the situation calls for it.

“My weakness is that I care too much”

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