“There’s got to be so
much more to life than this”
We all want something
more in life. I don’t care who you are, there is something out there you
desire. Life is never just “good enough” for any of us. We naturally crave all
of life’s riches and hope for something better. Do we ever think of other people?
Those who crave what we have, those who might never know the riches of the life
we take for granted?
I was recently playing
tennis with a friend who had improved a lot since the last time we played. I complimented him on the skills he now
sharpened and noted how terrific a player he was becoming. He told me he knew
he wasn’t good enough for me and he wanted to be better. He wanted to get into
better shape, build muscle and play every day he could. I admired his will to
improve but it left me thinking about my own life. I often worry I will never
be good enough or have enough of what I desire. I feel there is something
missing, and if I could only find that something, my entire life would be
complete. Before I moved to Texas, I couldn’t wait to find a tennis partner and
play tennis all year round. I become something “more” when I am on the tennis
court. It’s a feeling I have never experienced at any other point in my life. I’ve
been successful in school, at work, in activities, in writing…and yet, I never
feel it is enough. I want something more. But it’s not of the material kind; it’s
more of an emotional gasping. I feel a greater purpose awaits and I am not
certain how to tackle those feelings. I just know they exist and I must
discover their meaning. I must capture that same feeling I get when there is nothing
but my racquet, a tennis ball and a net.
This October I decided
to sponsor a child through Compassion International. I found out about
Compassion while attending a Newsboys concert at a Baptist Church in Austin. The
organization has a proven track record and is a legitimate charity. The monthly
investment seemed minimal compared to the world of difference I could make in
one child’s life. The little girl I sponsor is from Ecuador and her name is
Belinda. Our names are so
similar that I couldn’t pass on her. I am sure Belinda wishes for more out of
her life. If I can provide her with just one day of wishes, I hope to do so.
“I want my life to
count every breath…I want to live with abandon”
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