Thursday, December 31, 2015

Closing the Chapter


Closing the Chapter

“Days are good, and that’s the way it should be”

It seems like only yesterday I was getting ready to usher in the year 2015. My soon-to-be husband and I drove out of his apartment complex on New Years’ Eve in search of a decent restaurant. We hoped our last meal of 2014 would be a good one. We headed to PF Changs first, but the wait was out the door and the parking lot was full. We decided it was best to just stumble upon somewhere to eat, hoping no one else had the same idea.  After driving around for twenty minutes in North Austin, we finally found a restaurant with an open table and no wait at all. The Iron Cactus has always been one of our favorite places to dine and being there seemed a fitting end to a year in which we fell in love and got engaged. The hostess placed us on a round booth against the wall where we could sit right next to each other. The restaurant wasn’t filled, but there were plenty of other diners ushering in the New Year Tex-Mex style.

Last year was our first New Years’ together. I was bound and determined to not only stay up until the ball dropped in Time Square (I am still living on Eastern time after all), but to get a kiss at the stroke of midnight. Staying up did not happen, but I still got my midnight smooch. I remember thinking how wonderful 2015 would be. It would be the year I got married. Little did I know what else was in store.

I played plenty of tennis in 2015, but “plenty” is definitely not enough. On the morning of March 21st, I woke up around 5:00am after tossing and turning since 1:00am. It was the morning of my wedding and I was dedicated to my daily gym routine. Naturally, I sauntered off to the hotel gym, praying my fiancé wouldn’t see me before the ceremony. I could hardly sit still the entire morning, but any nerves I had prior to the day were vanished. I knew exactly what I wanted and knew I was making the best decision of my life. March definitely went in like a lion and out like a lamb. The end of the month spelled the end of our honeymoon. My husband and I continued to compete against each other on the tennis court, but soon another test happened upon us and our lives would be changed forever.

On June 24th, I took a pregnancy test. It turned out to be positive. The first thing I did when I found out I was pregnant (after telling my husband), was buy the first book I saw in a Barnes and Noble on my lunch break. Any impulsive tendencies I may have seem to pop up during monumental moments in my life. The first time I won an away tennis match, I wrote the score on the back of my bus pass. I treated myself to a new watch the year Ohio State won the national title in 2003. I wanted something to remember this moment by too, so I did some minor retail therapy. I am more enamored by books than clothes and B&N seemed the best place to go at the time. I still haven't' finished reading the book (Donna Tartt's "The Secret History") in entirety.

I’ve spent the last six months preparing for our first born child (thus, the lack of tennis). I haven’t been this excited to dress someone since I received Teddy Ruxpin as a gift some 27 years ago or so (it’s okay to compare a newborn to a storytelling talking teddy bear, right?) This year has been more remarkable and spectacular than I ever could have imagined. I got married, got pregnant, bought a house and became a certified HR professional. No one warned me that life could be this great. How do you close the chapter on the best year of your life? Well, I am ready to slow down just a little. I have a feeling that won’t be happening in 2016. My son, the little baby who kicks and wiggles in my stomach, will have much to say about that. The best way to close this chapter, for me at least, is to be grateful for the blessings, to humble myself and navigate the new year in much the same way I left 2015: with energy, hopefulness and peace.

“I see colors in a different way; you make what doesn’t matter fade to gray”

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